2 days ago, fei sin ask me to fetch her friends.. so my memories was filled with road map to cheras.. but now.. the data has corrupted and state with loading error. so i give up and transfered it to recycle bin.. wata hack if u can drive which mean u can go anywhere but u do not know the road. it is just useless to have a car. so what to do now? try to explore? i remember how proud am i exploring a huge region around my living area by riding bicycle. u can back from where u came by simply turn ur two wheel ride 180 degrees and u can back with the same road as how u came.. but how about car and the high way now.. sweating. cant use the same trick which i wanted it to be work! car cannot turn 180 degrees in the same road. my problem seems to be stupid to those who have no problem on it.. in my imagination.. exploring will overwhelm me fear and anxiety for not being certain about where am i heading and possible of wander away to somewhere difficult to return. a little slash in an accident will cost me more the 2 hundred not to mention serious crash will lead me to break.
I have finished my road blind.. and now, i would like to move on to abandoned kids and babies..
When i entered to an orphanage 2days ago, i can feel that the environment of the orphanage has no much different from the zoo .. all little kids are like caged in a large room. few are siting, few are chasing, few are playing but all are adorable! cute! small! we went in the room with fei sin and her friends. Have in mind as a purpose to choose a kid to borrow to accomplish a film. the funny thing was when a selected boy asked to bring along a friend, the boy straight approached to the most pretty n cute girl there for his company. the girl rejected him. too bad.. and after that, there is my 1st time to carry baby. nice man.. usually not dare due to their delicate bone.. how if i accidentally hurt him or accidentally drop him? then i will not forgive myself to d end of my life...
